Sap alert! Sap alert! If you can’t take the mushy gushy, stop now! I don’t blame you, most of the time I surprise myself.
Never in my wildest dreams could I imagine my life to feel so full. Not just full with the good stuff but full with everything. It feels overfull with good right now but lets get real talk, sometimes this life sucks the big one. Everything in perspective though and I’m thankful the sucky parts make the good ones that much sweeter.
I got married last week to someone who loves me more than I love myself. How in the world did that happen, to me. Who would’ve thought I deserved a husband like my Lancey. The day after all I did was cry! I just couldn’t believe how much God loved us and how much all of our friends and family loved us! It couldn’t have felt any more perfect or special. I truly felt like the daughter of a King who thinks I’m the bees knees and would give me the world. In a way, He did that day.
I thought I may put up my vows with this post. I feel a little showy/egoish doing that but a couple people thought it would be nice. Then I thought since it’s all about my Lancey pants maybe it’s ok. I had a lot of help from the big Guy because I prayed all the time about what to write. The morning of our wedding I woke up super early, of course, who on earth can sleep when they’re getting married! I prayed for God to open my heart and show me the words and that’s what I wrote down! My Dude hooked a girl up! That’s actually how I write all these never ending smooshy cheese fests I call a blog!
Ok, so here’s my vows, BIG TIME sap alert on these!
I vow
-To love you out loud
you ask me almost everyday, “why do I love you?”
I always say something silly or quick,
“because you’re pretty, or funny”
What I want to say is something much more meaningful but much more difficult.
What I want to say is,
“I love you because you have shown me a Love I never knew was there. One that made me Love myself more. That showed me what I deserve and am worthy to have. A Love I didn’t know I had inside of me. A heart I didn’t know anyone cherished or would want to be loved back with. With your Love I can do scary things. Like tell a room full of 100 people why I Love you so much! It pushes me to want more for myself. Because you know when I’m feeling badly and you always say, “come sit with me and tell me about it.” Because you always know how to make me feel better and say that one thing to make everything all right. A Love given to you by a King who gave me his Prince.
I vow
-To trust you
You said, “move to Worcester.”
I said, “no way!”
You said, “it will be great and you’ll like it”
I found a city to fall in love with. To be proud of and thankful for because it gave me you. It gave me a community of people to love and be loved by. A city with the biggest underdog heart (just like mine) that gives me a place to call home.
You said, “come work with me and teach kids”
I said, “no, I can’t do that”
you said, “they will love you just like I do”
I found a heart I didn’t know I could share. Those students we first taught together changed my life. It was the first time I felt I was doing something good. I was doing something worthy. It changed how I wanted to spend the rest of my life.
You said, “come to this church with me”
I said, “now you’ve really gone crazy”
you said, “I promise you will love it, there are people there just like you.”
I said, “this one your really going to pay for”
I found a God I didn’t believe in. Who showed me a woman I didn’t know was there. Who gave me a life I never knew existed. Who loves me just as I am.
You see me and want me to become better than I could ever imagine. Because you see me how God sees me. All of the biggest moments in my life that have shaped who I am and changed it forever have been because you said,
Trust me…yes, you can